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Registered: Feb 2001
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That's the thing about time... The future will never arrive quickly enough and the past was over too soon. It's nice to know someone else feels that way.

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Registered: Aug 2000
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the future is only an idea, and yesterday is only a memory.

live in the now

be in the now

cos right now is all that you'll ever have.

wooa shit isnt that profound!

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but you tell me it's temporary, it's a matter of time
by god
don't you think i know it's in my mind
and it's right over left, and healing the then
I'll soon be to nothing but i don't know when

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Registered: Feb 2001
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Time. Life is all about time. Doing your best to divide your time amongst the various things you do day to day. Of course, we never have enough time. I have all the time in the world right now, yet still feel like it is not enough. I am currently unemployed and do what I want when I want; yet it’s still not enough. Maybe I am being greedy, maybe just being selfish, but I can’t help feeling like there is not enough time. Am I on some sort of schedule where certain things have to get done in a certain amount of time? Not at all, so where does this feeling come from? I can only speculate. Sometimes I think that I do not belong in this time, or that my time has not yet come. I am not one to say either way.


VKL, this paragraph and some of the questions it raises make me think about my own life. I, too, feel like I never have enough time, and yet simultaneously still have that notion of immortality, that death is something that won't happen to ME, therefore, time is LIMITLESS. We think of time as being linear, the past, present and future running along a line from beginning to end, but is that really the case? Or is it just our limited perception? We have a way of creating certain concepts so that we feel comfortable in a world full of unknowns. I think that time might be one of those. I know that my sense of time has changed as I have gotten older. You are 21, I bet you still have a sense of an endless summer! At 37, time rushes past at an alarming rate. It's very scary sometimes. I liked that feeling of no limits.

When I was 27 my mom died of lung cancer. I thought I was dealing with it fine but in fact it scared the shit out of me. I had a pretty big crisis in relation to it. My mother was dead. I was next in line, the natural order. Time became very real to me, it wasn't as endless as I had always thought. I am always aware of the clock ticking...

Sometimes I think that I do not belong in this time, or that my time has not yet come. I am not one to say either way.

I often feel this way. Sometimes I think I missed the boat other times I feel like it hasn't arrived. I often feel out of place in this world. I think a lot of us do...

Anyhow, some good thoughts you brought up VKL.

and btw, I totally agree with what slight wrote.
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"if you never take it seriously, you never get hurt and if you never get hurt you always have fun"

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Registered: Aug 2000
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I hate to sound trite with this but I feel your pain. I know it all to well. For me, heartbreak and the idea that you are alone in a world with no real point is something I know and feel on a daily basis. In a way, I guess all of us that actually take the time to think, have this happen to us. With awareness comes doubt and pain. We have to learn how to use it as a teacher.

Great read, V. Damn good work.

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