Registered: Sep 2000
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The Biggest Fuck Up of Your Life?

So, what was the single biggest fuck-up you've ever made? You know, when you make a decision that is life-changing but when you look back you think: "Damn......what the hell did I do that for? I SHOULD never have done that? What the fuck was I thinking?" etc

For me, its all about a woman (when isnt it?). The best that ever was. My soulmate. I lusted after her for 3 years in college - when she was going out with a good mate of mine. When they broke up I got in there (and not before, I'm not that much of a bastard) and we spent 2 wonderful wonderful years together before I pressed the self-destruct.
Like a complete cock - I decided that it was best to end it. It seemed a good idea at the time because I was in a major sulk - and I put my "lifestyle" ahead of my relationship. I know now that I dumped not only my future-would-be wife-and-mother-of-my-children but....and this hurts......my soulmate. And she was exactly that. You know what I mean. When you've got something that 'good'its fucking electric. She tried hard to save it and I was, well...a disgrace. I look back at it now and cant for the life of me understand what I was doing.
I have never had a friend and lover quite like her since.

*violins start to play*

*forum members start to puke*

So, its been around 5 years and I still feel like shit. Yeah sure, I've had a few girlfriends since and a couple of serious ones too - but nothing to compare to the paragon of beauty I lost. The sickner is we had planned to travel the world together and the planning was at a serious stage. Thats always been something I've wanted to do. Badly. And I fucked that up as well.

She lives around a 20min car drive away. I've only seen her maybe 5 times in the past 5 years and I havent been forthcoming conversation wise. I mean, what do I say:
"Hi, remember me? I'm that celf-centred arrogant selfish pratt...you know, your soulmate".

Anyway, maybe fate will forgive me for my screw-up and play me a decent hand......Sometime soon I hope, I've been waiting for 5 fucking years..........

Serves me right.

*places gun to head*

*pulls trigger*

Damn it. Its jammed.


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Location: Richmond, VA
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my biggest mistake was moving out of my parents house. I used to feel sorry for those losers who lived at home until they were like 40, but now I see the pure brilliance of that move. oh well .. off to pay my own bills and cook myself some dinner...

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My biggest fuck up was deciding that the first time I would take chemical drugs that i would do 2 pills and 2 trips at the smae time...fuck me it blew my head off

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Beauty School.
What the fuck was I thinking?
But in all fairness to myself, I was only given the choice of that, auto mechanics, or secretary school. I should have been an auto mechanic.

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Location: Nanaimo BC, Canada
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I know how it feels, urbanjunkie. . .

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*considers the question*
*remembers things best forgotten*
*leaves thread*

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quote:

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Originally posted by Spooky:
My biggest fuck up was deciding that the first time I would take chemical drugs that i would do 2 pills and 2 trips at the smae time...fuck me it blew my head off

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quote:

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Originally posted by PityKitty:
*considers the question*
*remembers things best forgotten*
*leaves thread*

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Registered: Aug 2000
Location: baton rouge, la
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why not go talk to her? at the very least you'll have the chance to tell her how much of a fuckup you know you are and apologize.

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Registered: Aug 2000
Location: Toronto
Posts: 197

I think i am perfect.... Because as much as i can think.... There is no time i really fucked up... Just the little stupid things....

Well if i say i am perfect and i am wrong.... Since i do not have any other fuck ups... I am sure that one would be the biggist..... See look what u folks made me do

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Registered: Jul 2000
Location: Los Angeles, Ca
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A couple of things:

1) I could have bought E-Bay for $25. about a month or so after it went public. I used the site alot and knew it was a great idea, but I went hunting instead.

2) I won't even discuss my ex-wife.

3) I had a major advertiser (dodge) that wanted on one of my sites, we fucked up the presentation and our site didn't function properly. Both of us were at the appointment, so no one was at the server location to fix the problem. duh.


CAL

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Location: NJ
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i have a damned if you do, damned if you dont life...

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Location: NC/USA
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Probably going to jail... that one event really fucked my future up, and now 5 years down the road, it lingering on paperwork with my name on it somewhere fucks my life from time to time

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Registered: Aug 2000
Location: Boston, MA USA
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Drinking myself out of college. It took me 12 years to get my degree in night school.

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quote:

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Originally posted by HELL:
Beauty School.
What the fuck was I thinking?
But in all fairness to myself, I was only given the choice of that, auto mechanics, or secretary school. I should have been an auto mechanic.

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quote:

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Originally posted by David Lee Roth:
Drinking myself out of college. It took me 12 years to get my degree in night school.

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sleeping with my brother´s girlfriend


thank god, he never found out

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Location: GA
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im telling!
my biggest fuck up was named james. it was when i was 17.
bastard.

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Registered: Sep 2000
Location: the corrupt West
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three years with a complete psychopath that completely screwed up my head and caused me to go to school at a place close to home when i would have been much better going of somewhere else.

But things have worked out for the best, finally.

although i am still kindof screwed up from it now and again. and i'm sure if she saw me walking on the side of the road she would run me over.

::needing a hug, looks around for Am_Sci, seeing she's not here goes and sulks in the corner::

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Registered: Aug 2000
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I'm 24. I haven't been alive long enough yet to fuck up really badly. Give me time, though, I'm working on it.

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Music was assassinated on the 8th December 1980

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There were so many, how could I choose just one? Even ignoring my immense stupidity when I was a teenager, I have several to choose from.

I let my husband move me to bum-fuck Ohio. We lived near in the largest community of Amish people outside of Lancaster, Penn. Friggin buggies everywhere. And a dairy farm outside my front window. After three years of exile, I’m finally back in Columbus (a real city) where I belong. Yea!!!!!

Of course I got married in the first place, so that’s a pretty big one. (quit it, that’s not what I meant).

Oh, and I chose Psychology as my major in college, guaranteeing a secretarial job when I graduated.


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Originally posted by Boobsnbuds:
I did select auto mechanics. In retrospect I should have selected beauty school. There's a lot more tit's to chase around the salon. If I had chased any tit's around the shop, They would have been hairy and male.

*pukes*

Excuse me, I feel the need to be cleansed now.

*runs from thread*

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Location: Erehwon
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biggest fuckup = failing my degree

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Location: Helsinki. Finland
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Here are some things that I regret:

- Not believing in myself, when I was younger

- Taking women too seriously when I was younger. I should have masturbated more and dreamed of women less.

- Being an asshole to my ex-girlfriend.

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All the reasons I was ever arrested...

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