I was REALLY shitty to Erinity in chat this morning and made her cry.
I was wrong to act that way and didn't realize what I was saying at the time until it was too late. Then I let my pride get the best of me and didn't try to patch things up at that time.
Since it happend in open channel, I figger I should make my apology in an open forum.
Erin, I am the LAST person who should give ANYBODY shit for their problems. I stopped posting much of anything the other day, because I'd run out of anything nice to say to anyone. I'm sorry I hurt you this morning, and I hope I never do it again. I don't blame you for being angry at me, and I hope I didn't ruin yer day. And good luck with everything.
I'm an ass most of the time, and I can't do that here in good conscience. I feel rotten about the way I treated you.
I don't think mugtoe was trying to mock you, erin. But I understand your fear of slipping back to old ways... just know that there isn't a very thin line between "starving yourself" and "slowly cutting back on sugar". There really aren't many foods out there these days that are horribly sugary, i think you can handle it. It seems like you're just sort of panicking.
I have always found that if I reduce the amount of carbs and sugars I eat, then I lose weight. 'Course you don't want to eliminate them b/c that is unhealthy. I had a friend who had eating disorders in high school. Not going to go into details about her, but it is really easy for people to slip back into their old habits, especially when faced with stress or emotional upset. And when they have to get on that scale every morning to see if they have lost the weight their doctor wants off them, that is a lot of pressure on the wrong nerve.
That said, this same friend also had a tendency to use her eating disorder to get attention and sympathy. THAT I found annoying and lowered my opinion of her. Not that I'm saying Erin did that, I didn't bother to read that long ass chat, all I'm saying is that if she was I could understand the frustration of those around her.
quote:Originally posted by Firedrops when they have to get on that scale every morning to see if they have lost the weight their doctor wants off them, that is a lot of pressure on the wrong nerve.
How so? it's not that the doctor is saying "for fuck's sake drop the pounds you tubby bitch!" He's concerned for her health. She said in that log that the doctor told her she would be at high risk for becoming diabetic if she doesn't cut back the sugar.
Because usually what leads girls to having eating disorders is that they get on the scale or stare in the mirror every morning and think, "I'm fat, I need to lose weight." And when the diets don't work they do something idiotic, like start throwing up or simply NOT eating. And then they keep doing it b/c it works. So now the doctor says, "you're fat, you need to lose weight." (though probably in nicer terms) and she most likely feels like she is in the same situation again.
But really you should be asking her this, I guess. I've never had an eating disorder (never cared THAT much about any extra pounds) so I'm just doing some edumicated guessin.