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Depressed? Isolated? What????

Why do you come here?

I am sure this question has been asked many times before, but I am putting it out anyhow.

Are you here because you are sad?

Are you here because you don't fit in elsewhere?

Boredom?

Escape?

I saw my therapist today for the fist time in months and I was NOT expecting that I would break down sobbing in his office. I didn't know how bad I am really feeling.

I suffer from dysthymia, which is chronic low grade depression. I have had it as long as I can remember (age 5). I have tried meds with little or no effect, usually only negative side effects. Being chronically depressed sucks my energy. I am often drained and can't get the things I want or just need to do done.

I told him that I was spending alot more time online than interacting in the "real world". He had concerns that I am isolating myself. I have found alot of my personal friendships to be really disappointing, lacking substance. I don't find that online, in fact I find people who have something to say, interesting , intelligent and talent people, who for some reason, choose to spend a chunk of their life here.

I wonder if I am helping myself or harming myself? I don't want to give up my dreams for a healthy life, will this place, or any place online steer me towards that or away from that?

I wonder how being online fills other people's needs.

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I get everything I need right here, I NEVER LEAVE. Well ok I lie. I get mental stimulus that keeps my mind off my problems and all those scary thoughts that chase me down in moments of inactivity.
I also find people who I can sympathize with(like you inky darling) and I find people I can argue with and people I can enjoy despising and even some funny types(GFY reigns)

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I'm just here for the popcorn.

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I come here to increase my typing speed.

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The voices tell me I must

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The voices tell me I must

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quote:

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Originally posted by GoFuckYourselves!:
I come here to increase my typing speed.

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The voices tell me too

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I would be wary of any head quack who criticises the Internet before they immerse themselves in it and see what it can offer.

I come here because everyone knows my name.

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quote:

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Originally posted by Mordecai:
400 PPN isn't fast enough for you?

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401k? thinking about retirement already?

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quote:

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Originally posted by Mordecai:
401k? thinking about retirement already?

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in the middle of a blizzard?
how cruel!
how callous!
how cold!

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quote:

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Originally posted by Mordecai:
in the middle of a blizzard?
how cruel!
how callous!
how cold!

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I do declare!
they are cold blooded!
also be aware!
the forum is flooded!

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quote:

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Originally posted by Mordecai:
I do declare!
they are cold blooded!
also be aware!
the forum is flooded!

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this post sure turned to shit.

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The whole forum has gone to shit. GFY has done a number on the forum today... oh and I guess I kinda helped. sorry inky.

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The whole forum has gone to shit. GFY has done a number on the forum today... oh and I guess I kinda helped. sorry inky.

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quote:

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Originally posted by Inky:
I wonder if I am helping myself or harming myself? I don't want to give up my dreams for a healthy life, will this place, or any place online steer me towards that or away from that?

I wonder how being online fills other people's needs.

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how much time do you actually spend connected to the net?

personally, this place is addictive and i probably spend most of my time in here when online. it wont harm you unless you allow it to. if you just give up on the outside world then isolation is all you're realy asking for.

you say people online (here) have "something to say, interesting , intelligent and talent people" etc - these people also happen to be in the outside world too.

i've been outside a few times and meet some of them

it also works the other way too. i have friends i wish would post in here but they dont see the point of this place. its a shame really.

you need to change the pub you're drinking in



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urbanjunkie, you know I love you. And we have so much fun kidding around. But I really want to take this opportunity to tell you that out of all the scores of people who come here and joke and have fun, I really want to tell you, honestly, from the bottom of my heart, that you're one of them!!!!

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urbanjunkie, you know I love you. And we have so much fun kidding around. But I really want to take this opportunity to tell you that out of all the scores of people who come here and joke and have fun, I really want to tell you, honestly, from the bottom of my heart, that you're one of them!!!!

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*gets out assault rifle

*shoots the fuck out of the machine that keeps playing that DREADFUL Cheers theme

*blows off barrel of gun

*goes looking for GFY

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Originally posted by Inky:
*gets out assault rifle

*shoots the fuck out of the machine that keeps playing that DREADFUL Cheers theme

*blows off barrel of gun

*goes looking for GFY

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*blows the fuck out of the door

*blows off barrel of rifle

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