Registered: Sep 2000
Location: Helsinki. Finland
Posts: 233

I really made things difficult

Tomorrow it is May the 1st so today is a traditional Finnish drinking festival. Actually the drinking festival has already begun a couple of days ago. Yesterday I was talking and drinking with some friends and it really made me think about things. I went walking with a friend and his new girlfriend, both really cool people.



I started thinking about being with women and people in general. I've somehow thought that it's 'better' to have a girlfriend than not, and other things like that too. But really the thing that matters most is what you _learn_ from something. I need to be around people more.



While studying physics I've learned that it's fun to understand things, but it's as much fun to _not_ understand things, because that means you've got something to learn. Provided that you understand that you don't understand it. But I didn't think



It's fun to achieve something, but it's as much fun to _not_ achieve something. Of course.



Afterwards we went drinking with a friend from work, and he said that he really respected me and he said that he thought that I was a very moral person. The compliment made me feel attached to itself.



On some other field I could have taken the compliment, but it seems that I have some kind of a pissy win/lose attitude about some things. I need to be able to see the good things in everybody and acknowledge them.



And I am too much of an 'observer'. Or actually not, I am just too amorphous. I need to have some values, I need to have essence...



And if for instance a friend is depressed, I sometimes get this idea that there is something "wrong" with being depressed or having some other problems. I guess that's because those things are in my character too more than I think, just not at the surface at the moment. And maybe I´ll have to go through some hard times to get rid of them, unless I can't do it otherwise.



On some specific fields I can be pretty supporting and encouraging, but my character still needs a lot of work. But this experience with specific fields is really helpful..

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Registered: Aug 2000
Location: In your mom's panties
Posts: 556

Man, you are an "Old Hippie", you think too much. My philosophy in life is based on a simple, yet self-fulfilling truth. People will see you as you see yourself. The way you want people to see you is the way you should act. Remember to adapt to the situation. Act accordingly. We all have different sides to us and we chose which sides people see and when. I act like a jackass 90% of the time because I can. I also know when not to act like a jackass. It's a fine line that can easily be walked if you are true to yourself.

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Registered: Jul 2000
Location: Sedona, Arizona
Posts: 19114

Interesting thread and FT is fairly well on the mark, IMO, except I think you just think a "little" too much.
One can wear themselves out trying to be all things to all people and usually wind up looking like an ass end the end because of the complexity of such a task.
It is certainly hard to find that "sweet spot" where you and those you care about are comfortable though.

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Registered: Aug 2000
Location: baton rouge, la
Posts: 4101

also, tommorow being may 1st, Schism is being released on the tool site. *salivates*

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Registered: Sep 2000
Location: Playa d'en London
Posts: 9826

may the 1st. great. more riots in london.

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Registered: Sep 2000
Location: Helsinki. Finland
Posts: 233

I just need to stop attaching any significance to what somebody thinks of me, because it's probably quite inaccurate anyway. Probably even what _I_ think of myself is often inaccurate. So yeah, I guess I can see how it would be helpful to be able to stop thinking at all.

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