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I don't think there ever has been a presidential term that has affected me so hard. Okay,we can't blame Bush for everything but damn if shit around you has been hard.
Just the price of gas alone. Because truckers are struggling everything they haul has been marked up. Shit. This isn't the reason for this thread. This is shit we all know. We are ALL struggling with shit small or large. Whatever.
But here's the thing. I've been hearing some crazy drama at the agency I dedicated my life to that kicked me like a piece of shit. Yea I know. It doesn't concern me. But it does for my Host Home guy goes there for day program. More people have been kicked off. Now the school is struggling for a union it seems and the major players trying to get this together are getting the boot.
The economy? Sure it's the economy. Everyone out to save money cutting corners. Once you maxed out in pay,Bye Bye.
Besides all the people here I think of as my friends whether I had actually met you all but once or never at all maybe never will,people will have real friends that you could count with only one hand.
I have two. Besides my wife and family,in this world,I have but two.
One of them called me today. She worked with me and was kicked off,then a few months later because her two host home guys belonged to the same agency she soon lost her host home too. Yes. I blame the economy. They were out to save some money. We were part of the cut backs. She made too much money it seemed in reimbursement and the new host home guys are compensating for less..
That was about a year and a half ago. Since then the mortage company came over and gave her $1,500 to move out that day so they can try to resell that 6 bedroom home. That was a blessing for she was able to get a deposit down for a smaller shit-hole of a place.
She's been working two jobs and 12 to 14 hour days 7 days a week. She tries,dawgs. She tries.
So today she calls me wanting to know if I can put up an ad in Craigslist for ALL HER SHIT.
She's 100 bucks short of her rent. No big deal I tell her. She's seen far far worst. I couldn't fucking help her,but she more than understood. We are ALL struggling in one way or another.
She's proud. She will NEVER ask me for money. The desperation in her voice just broke my heart.
But she'll be alright. It's just so hard anymore. Here's what's fucked up. She has TWO daughters with kids. They got section 8 housing. They will not let their mom move in with them. There's just drama there. It's all fucked up.
I really shouldn't associate with her anymore. I mean we were work friends. We rolled together daily with our group for over a decade. That chapter is over now. We should just move on. No way. We are friends for life.
I hope she fucking doesn't do anything fucking stupid. She had a foster homes after foster homes growing up and has tried to kill herself on some occasions. Right now I just want to go over to her daughters place and kick the living shit out of them then hold my god daughter in my arms.
You know,our bills. Have you looked at them?
Notice something? Gotten higher,huh.
groceries have gone up 100 bucks a month,bills have gone up an average of 25 dollars give and take. Gas. Well I'm winning that war thanks to Cronus and MOOP but my close friend has a Dodge Ram 14 MPG truck with still another 5 years of 400 dollar plus payments. Yea. Her fault,man. But at the time we were working all those years almost maxed out in pay and with Host homes. So she could afford it then. Now,if she loses her truck,she would be defeated.
I'm just ranting here. I'll be flat out. I'm not asking for any generosity. Like I said,she'll be okay.
Her landlord will take SOMETHING from her and won't make her homeless. How do I know this? Because if she gets kicked out it would be MONTHS before she can find another tenant. That's the way it is. Some money to pay the mortage is better than no money to the landlord's eyes.
I'm tired already of this recession. Yes. We are in a recession.
On a good note,this is the Balloon payment month on my house. The original owner can just snag my house now and I'm on the street.
But he's a good man. There is a god.
There is a god.
He's gonna sign off a loan,he'll take the check,and I'll make the payments.
Why did he do this instead of banking 200 thousand reselling my house? Because he has integrity... and he may sit on this house for years with no buyers. Oh the irony.
So I'm doing good,and my friend is in a world of hurt... again.
My other close friend is all alone in this world. He'll do anything for you. He gave my friend that 100 bucks tonight. And she cried. Just got off the phone with him. He was pretty goddamn tearful in his voice too.
Fucked up world,man.
Fucked up world.
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