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I’m currently mourning the destruction of one of the few beautiful memories I had a child.
Not only has it been destroyed by nature in large part but also now it has been diminished into political fodder, and it seems the media and the same old people are about to turn it into a racist thing. The faces and stories of it’s suffering turned into entertainment. Real life misfortunes played out via mpegs and snap shots so idle people can sit and ooo and ahh and offer their “noble and generous heart-felt political opinions”. The boy who cried wolf and chicken little in an anal fuck fest and fisting orgy, using the flood victims their lube.
So much is lost.
I am so tired of the media, I am so tired of the talking heads, I am so tired of the political bullshit, I’m so tired of the politicians, the special interest fucks like al sharpton, I’m so tired of the shallow self serving arguments, I’m so tired of the soap opera soapbox circle jerk faux intellectualism, people who value nothing, honor nothing leave what serves them alone and their comfort smugly shitting on people who do.
And the cherry: I was afforded more respect from someone I considered an enemy for years via a few pms, than I was from someone I consider a friend on the forum today. I’m not even sure what that is supposed to mean on the merits.
I almost don't fucking care.
My body soul and spirit are tired. My constant battle trying to not become a misanthrope, trying to see the beauty in everything needs a boost. My reserves are empty. I’m depressed, angry, disgusted and disappointed. I’m tired of being strong, I’m tired of being the one who always has to fix things, I’m tired of feeling responsible for everyone around me, Im tired of working ridiculous hours and many of times not even for my or my children’s benefit-leave knowing people are pleased and needed me, I’m tired of doing the things I do and sometimes not afforded minor courtesy...but it is who I’ll always be, It is what I’ll always do. But I am tired, so very fucking tired.
I need to rest and I have no where to sleep.
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